Disillusioned yet happy and hopeful
I know feeling sad doesn’t help. I know my Sinnavan is not coming back. Nothing is going to change anything; however, I feel. I know all that. And yet … it’s hard not to feel sad. Hard not to feel that sense of tragic loss. That ‘never being able to see, speak and spend time […]
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I don’t like goodbyes. Like I had written previously, I want to and like to be part of the welcome wagon. The wagon that invites and is full of smiles, bear hugs and happy times to look forward to. This time around, when sisters number 1 from England, and sisters number 2 and 4 arrived […]
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My sisters return to their homes in England and Australia tomorrow. The twelve days have gone past swiftly. I’m already missing them. In fact, I’ve been thinking of tomorrow since last Tuesday. It will be heartbreaking saying goodbye. As my mum used to say, ‘If you come, you have to go.’ Particularly because all her […]
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Last Thursday, my sisters arrived in KL. Sister number 1 from England. Sisters 2 and 4 from Australia. They are here to be with brother number 2 and me. Five siblings from the original ‘Magnificent Seven.’ We are getting together, I think, I hope, to help us find some solace following sister number 3’s sudden […]
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I’ve written six posts about my Sinnavan. This is post number seven. I feel like I want to keep writing about her. I want to keep remembering her. And, keep her present in my life. It’s somewhat like what sister number 1 said to me tearfully over the telephone, ‘If we can’t speak about our […]
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I told myself enough already but I can’t seem to or want to stop writing about sister number 3. It’s like an outlet for me, my mobile to talk to her, and about her. Obviously, I miss my Sinnavan. I miss my daily phone calls with her. I miss her voice. I miss her laugh, […]
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My husband and I lit two candles on 15 May for sister number 3. As did my siblings and family. To mark her leaving us. I know … WHAT? This cannot be but it is. Even as I lit the candle, I was saying this is not right, this cannot be. It cannot be but […]
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I think about rising oil prices. I think about how it’s affecting the costs of almost everything. I kid you not. In the first week after the US and Israel attacked Iran, the price of a lemon, yes, one piece of lemon was RM3.30 versus RM1.80 – RM2.50. At first, I thought it was a […]
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He said ‘no’ and gestured to my husband and me to make a U-turn and walk back the way we came. ‘No,’ ‘no’ was all he said. That is until I spoke to him in Bahasa. Apparently, we were walking towards the workers’ quarters, and not back to the resort. Yes, a resort that we’ve […]
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It’s still my birthday month, yes, one more day to go. Last Tuesday, my mum-in-law asked about my birthday celebrations. I explained that it would continue until the end of March, as I cannot go cold turkey on my desserts. I needed a week to slowly wean myself off the sugar overload. Officially six and […]
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