More writing

June 1, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

I told myself enough already but I can’t seem to or want to stop writing about sister number 3. It’s like an outlet for me, my mobile to talk to her, and about her. Obviously, I miss my Sinnavan. I miss my daily phone calls with her. I miss her voice. I miss her laugh, […]

It is what it is

May 25, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

My husband and I lit two candles on 15 May for sister number 3. As did my siblings and family. To mark her leaving us. I know … WHAT? This cannot be but it is. Even as I lit the candle, I was saying this is not right, this cannot be. It cannot be but […]

Remembering

May 18, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

In the first week, I visited two museums and walked in three parks. I watched a band at a local bar. Doing things, keeping busy should help. In the second week, my husband and I drove to Cherating in Pahang, and Terengganu for five nights. A change in scenery should help. Did it help? Yes and […]

What to do

May 11, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

The dominant thought, focus, theme of my every waking moment is my Sinnavan. I think of her. And, I think of her. I don’t want to. Seriously, I don’t. I don’t want to be sad and tearful. But I can’t help myself. Even when I’m doing things to keep my mind from thinking about her, […]

My Sinnavan

May 4, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

I’ve lost my sister. My best friend. My confidante. My second mum. My daily chat partner. Yes, everyday sister number 3 calls me between 12noon and 2pm, local time, depending on how long she has managed to sleep the night before in her home in London. When I’ve been out for lunch with family or […]

Working here

April 6, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

He said ‘no’ and gestured to my husband and me to make a U-turn and walk back the way we came. ‘No,’ ‘no’ was all he said. That is until I spoke to him in Bahasa. Apparently, we were walking towards the workers’ quarters, and not back to the resort. Yes, a resort that we’ve […]

Still thus far

March 30, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

It’s still my birthday month, yes, one more day to go. Last Tuesday, my mum-in-law asked about my birthday celebrations. I explained that it would continue until the end of March, as I cannot go cold turkey on my desserts. I needed a week to slowly wean myself off the sugar overload. Officially six and […]

Digestion…

March 16, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

I must have missed the biology class on digestion in school. It was only recently that I realised how little I knew/know about how food I eat gets digested and how long before the non-digested bits leave the digestive system. The length of time was what I found interesting. I thought it took four hours […]

Warring worries

March 9, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

The plan was good. The timing, not. My husband and I’ve been talking about flying to England to visit family for some months now. Over the last few weeks, we’ve been checking for the best fares and ideal flight times. Deliberation and a tad of blasé-ness lost us a couple of better fares, so we […]

Smiley-happy orchids

March 2, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

I ‘woke’ up, and continued not sleeping, and walking into my living room feeling tired. Not an unusual start to many mornings for insomniac me. What was different was how quickly I turned smiley-happy. One of the buds of the orchid plant, yes orchird plant, was opening up. It was beginning to bloom. I forgot […]