Busy everywhere

August 10, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

I wanted to write about this busyness but I’ve had a lot of ‘busyness’, still do, going on in my head and life. I feel like I’m living in dodgem city. Instead of bumper cars bumping into me and surrounding me, its people, vehicles, and … buildings. I knew the trade-offs when my husband and […]

Three months on …

July 27, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

Yesterday was three-months since my Sinnavan passed. Like I had written before, it seems like a lot longer. On Wednesday, a memorial service will be held for her. Sister number 1 and family, and brother-in-law number 3 will be there. Also attending will be her ex-colleagues from the hospitals she had worked in. Going back […]

Working on it

July 13, 2026.Reading time 7 minutes.

I know feeling sad doesn’t help. I know my Sinnavan is not coming back. Nothing is going to change anything; however, I feel. I know all that. And yet … it’s hard not to feel sad. Hard not to feel that sense of tragic loss. That ‘never being able to see, speak and spend time […]

Siblings

June 29, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

My sisters return to their homes in England and Australia tomorrow. The twelve days have gone past swiftly. I’m already missing them. In fact, I’ve been thinking of tomorrow since last Tuesday. It will be heartbreaking saying goodbye. As my mum used to say, ‘If you come, you have to go.’ Particularly because all her […]

Together

June 22, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

Last Thursday, my sisters arrived in KL. Sister number 1 from England. Sisters 2 and 4 from Australia. They are here to be with brother number 2 and me. Five siblings from the original ‘Magnificent Seven.’ We are getting together, I think, I hope, to help us find some solace following sister number 3’s sudden […]

On my mind

June 15, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

I’ve written six posts about my Sinnavan. This is post number seven. I feel like I want to keep writing about her. I want to keep remembering her. And, keep her present in my life. It’s somewhat like what sister number 1 said to me tearfully over the telephone, ‘If we can’t speak about our […]

Whatever, whenever

June 8, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

My husband and I got together with brother 2 and family to celebrate his birthday. It was a few hours of chatter, laughter and feasting. The company was good. Stories and happenings were shared particularly by the nieces and nephews. The food received many thumbs-ups with an ‘I will return for the sausages’ review. The […]

More writing

June 1, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

I told myself enough already but I can’t seem to or want to stop writing about sister number 3. It’s like an outlet for me, my mobile to talk to her, and about her. Obviously, I miss my Sinnavan. I miss my daily phone calls with her. I miss her voice. I miss her laugh, […]

It is what it is

May 25, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

My husband and I lit two candles on 15 May for sister number 3. As did my siblings and family. To mark her leaving us. I know … WHAT? This cannot be but it is. Even as I lit the candle, I was saying this is not right, this cannot be. It cannot be but […]

Remembering

May 18, 2026.Reading time 6 minutes.

In the first week, I visited two museums and walked in three parks. I watched a band at a local bar. Doing things, keeping busy should help. In the second week, my husband and I drove to Cherating in Pahang, and Terengganu for five nights. A change in scenery should help. Did it help? Yes and […]